THE WANDERER

There is no road
there is no lodge
stars above
pine straw below

CROSSING THE STREAM

'tis better to own the truth
cross the stream
than to putter around, falter
in stagnant waters

THE PENETRATING WIND

Wind separates the wheat from the chaf:

     Winds following one upon another
     producing gradual and inconspicuous effects
     by influenze that never lapses
                                                    I CHING

So too does Spirit penetrate our lives
Winnowing out Truth from deception

   



                                                    

DREAMING

Am I but a puppet
to be jerked around by opposing realities

One cannot tell the difference between
waking consciousness and the dream world
while dreaming intently I was rudely yanked
back into waking reality

but in truth the reality of which
is but apparently relative
one no more real than the other

to distinguish between the two (realities)
one would be hard pressed
yea, unable to do so
except for one thing--
in the dream the thought of making such a distinction
never occurs
under the power of the dream
one is intimately, totally involved
only in conscious waking moments are such distinctions made

Again, the power of the dream
is so all-powerful that reflection is not an option

     His mind is natural and true, unshadowed by reflection...
     for wherever conscious purpose is seen, there
     the truth and innocence of nature have been lost. (I CHING)

So, it follows that conscious reality
reflective as it is, is deceptive, untrue
'tis not the dream that is illusory
but waking consciousness itself

thus the credo:  FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS
a fundamental injunction of truth

What pearl is it that rich men cannot buy,
That learning is too proud to gather up;
But which the poor and the despised of all
Seek and obtain, and often find unsought?
Tell me--and I will tell thee what is truth.
                                         William Cowper

THE SUMMER SOLSTICE

the longest day, the fullest Light
the Summer Solstice bursts forth June 21
what does it mean?

the sun reaches its furthest point on the horizon
pauses...
then starts its return trip

industrialization, mechanization, technology
have obscured our awareness of Nature
the Ancients were intimately familiar with Nature's Patterns
thru direct observation
Patterns are revealed only by constant observation
over time

Take time, make observations, construct Patterns

get acquainted with the Natural World

IMAGE OF GOD

God not only sees us
He sees thru us...

He sees us in the Light of Eternity
afterall
He knows how it all turns out
therefore, he sees us as we truly are
for in the End we all reach Completion
for all those that seek it

all that is in-between Beginning and End
falls away, Time dissolves

revealing the Perfect Being of Creation

DREAMCATCHER

Never has my dream-recall been so clear
in its meaning and imagery
i have awakened the muse within
my nightly ventures have become lucid
a waking dream

unmistakeably dreams point the Way
with solemn awareness
Follow...just follow

SWITCHBACKS

to ascend a rise on the horizontal
rather than the vertical
who would have thought it

a slow, but steady climb
rather than a direct assualt
'tis the way to reach one's goal
whether mountianering or navigating life's
winding course

I took the "red pill"
fell down the rabbit hole
the world came apart at its seams...
dissolution

"How good it is, O see,
       And how it pleaseth well,
Together, e'en in unity,
     For brethern so to dwell"

THE LAST OF THE MOHICANS, James Fenimore Cooper

REBIRTH

 to some species of the animal kingdom
the Creator has given regenerative powers
the power to regrow missing limbs

but man is endowed with a Higher Power
Spiritual Regeneration--REBIRTH

"By decrease of the lower powers of Psyche
the Higher aspects of Soul are reached...
intensifying and strengthening Inner Being
so that Currents of Power emanate"
Resonance

I Ching

REDEEMER

And Jesus said:
     "I came not to send peace, but a sword.  For I am come to set a man at variances
     against his father, and the daughter against her mother. ... And a man's foes shall
     be those of his own household."

"Every moment of time bursts free from the fetters of the moment before."
 Joseph Campbell

ETERNITY

i look forward to Eternity
the dissolution of form
the resolution of opposites
in the mean-time, in deep-sleep
i am refreshed and sustained by nightly visits
to the source-darkness
                                    Joseph Campbell

I can't get you outta my head
now, that i've found you in the darkness
tucked away in my heart

the thot of you resonates
constantly
its an impossible task
trying to wrap my mind around eternity

SLOW and GENTLE

slow and steady the wind blows thru the trees
penetrating
having a calming effect
caressing as it were, the very leaves of indolence

BIRD OF PARADISE

Twice now, as i awakened from a peaceful sleep
i've seen the Bird of Paradise
doing a fly-by right in front of me

It is said just a glimpse
of said bird
breaks all limitations and bestows eternal happiness

one quiet morning
while sitting in meditation
i met the Self within
discovered the bridge to Immortality

THE CALL TO ADVENTURE

Truth is always disguised in symbolic language
because it filters up from the unconscious
in dreams, myths, religions, fairy-tales

the good news is that it is Within
tho we exhaust ourselves in fruitless outer searching
we only have to rediscover the keys to lumen naturae
the Light within, the lessons, knowledge waiting within
it is not a Journey for the timid

The Call to Adventure
entails facing the dark night of the Soul
monsters, demons, fears unnamed
but for thoz brave enough to take the Journey
rich rewards await
the highest is the awakening of the Self
the God within

No Teacher whether Jesus, Mohammed, or Buddha
advocated material prosperity
they disavowed it in the name of "share and share alike"

According to Jesus even he who came in the last hour
was entitled to a full portion
"if a man asks for your coat give him your cloak as well"

the Source of prosperity, of matter of any kind, is Spirit
as demonstrated by the fishes and loaves miracle in The Sermon on the Mount
even the New Physics is based on the principle
that Energy (Spirit) is the source of Matter

if you are brave enough for the Journey
Become ye a Seeker
Know Truth, discover it and re-discover it moment to moment
for Creation, tho Eternal, is occurring moment to moment
a process of birth-death-rebirth

Brother-Sister
what a  sacred relationship
like no other

You touched my soul-companion
brought me Spiritual Delight
a Primal Playfulness

I was completely taken
lost
in and by your Beauty
and you knew it
I wonder how it felt
as the BRINGER OF DELIGHT

"The flower that smiles today

    Tomorrow dies

All that which we wish to stay

     Tempts and then flies;

What is this world's delight?

Lightning that mocks the night,

Brief even as bright"

                                    Shelley

FRIDAY NIGHT LIGHTS

FRIDAY NIGHT LIGHTS
Why did I ever leave it
the lights a beacon for miles around
like chuch bells on Sunday morn summoning the faithful
bringing together young and old

Taz, the strength coach, at Magnolia tried to tell me
3A was where I belonged

I culda been somebody
thoz boys were the best Texas had to offer
they needed me
My own family needed me

Why did  i turn-tail and run
PRIDE
in 4A i bit off more than i culd chew

That ain't the spirit of Texas Football
you get in there and fight tooth and nail
that's character, that's Friday Night Football

CHILD OF THE 60'S

I am proud to be a child of the 60's
when principles held firm:
PEACE LOVE JOY TRUTH CO-OPERATION

my life had a firm foundation
albeit at odds with the rest of society
I paid for that my life-long thru
as did my family

I never sought financial success but fairness
my family felt not proud but deprived
from what they could see, their father was a failure

They knew nothing of War/Truth, Corporate Fascism/Success/ Greed

But today is worse
I would hate to raise a child in this world of deception
Where Corporate Values rule, drugs and materialism are rampant

President Dwight Eisenhower
warned of this sad state of affairs as he left office:

Eisenhower warns us of the military industrial complex.

SUFFERING

Suffering hurts or it would not be Sacrifice
I willing accept suffering
that sacrifice may transmute the suffering of others

it is what you taught us Lord
Redemption thru Sacrifice
Though I have not undergone your humiliation and pain
I feel your Suffering
can this not reduce evil

Willingly I bear Suffering
Freely dispense Redemption

FLOATING ON AIR

I have straighted up the house
made the bed; washed the dishes
but there you are
hauntingly beautiful, gazing at me

nothing I can do can bring you back
only strengthen your memories
re-assure my belief in Transfiguration

I know the mystical dimension
will manifest
but neither when nor where
but I am made more by your company

I know that one day
I will look over my shoulder
and there you will be
in both flesh and spirit
like "loaves and fishes"

the mystical enhances my every mundane moment
just floating on air

LUCIFER

In-depth consciousness, an unfamiliar landscape
nothing is as it seems to be
Silently, I stand as the Terror approaches
I stare blindly into The DEATH MESSENGERS EYES
only REDEMPTION between he and I can resolve the Eternal conflict
LUCIFER thou are so bright, unexpectedly Beautiful
Brothers, instinctively drawn to each other
The Suffering you have endured at the hand of un-awakened consciousness
The Evil Deeds which have wrongly been projected upon you
because of Mankind's refusal to take ownership of his own actions
DARK ANGEL, not inherently wicked but despised scapegoat
(As Christ Himself was a scapegoat both for Suffering and Redemption)
I see myself in your eyes
I have pierced the Darkness and it is but a mirror
I have charted these waters in dreams, nightmares

Looking into Death's Eyes with recognition
Abide but awhile
don't run, turn in disgust
for the villain is but one's self
confront your shadow, ask of it what it means to tell you

Christianity awaits Participatory Redemption

do I see but loneliness, rejection
misplaced projections
Starring openly into his eyes
I see the Horror, the Betrayal
it shreds my ego, but my Soul abides

SPIRIT CHILD

our spirit child
invoked by intensity and purity
traverses between worlds
ego and soul

when hearts become pregnant
she whispers knowledge inadmissible to ego
then
slips back into brackish waters
re-founding primal truths
amidst the mud

ego shuns such communion
lest it become smeared with reality
but
late at nite, when its "safe"
when covers are pulled tight
ego nuzzles close to the divine spirit child
yearning for what makes it shine in the darkness

but mind you
only the spirit child
travels in both worlds
only the spirit child really knows

I sink with the BLACK SUN
we descend into the Darkness as we mutually pursue the lumen naturare
for buried in  matter is a famous secret--
spiritual gold
we must explore the shadow aspects of our personality
for our wounds, our sufferings are the ticket
to the source of our blessings
that which is the darkest, our curse, is the source of our blessings, if confronted
Both Light and Dark sides of God must be beheld
In the HOLY GRAIL,the unconscious, itself
Christ and the Devil become One

Christ must not only imprison the Devil
for a 1,0000 year reign of Peace
but become He, thru us, who slays Evil
In gross terms, the GUNSLINGER, (Dirty Harry, if you will)
by the numonsity of billions must emerge
MAN on the generic, species level must develop
into the SELF, GOD, and do the deed

The Christian view of man is that we are in need of REDEMPTION
and leave Redemption to an autonomous figure--Christ
"but [man] must play a participatory role in the INCARNATION
of the Divine Being" (Paul Levy) we must pull the trigger, cleave the head

Thru SUFFERING we begin to see the Initiatory role of Suffering
Suffering is not a separate experience of the ego
but is the Incarnation experience, itself
The Crucifixion was not so much Christ suffering Death
but God becoming Human
what is God, what is the Self but the collective, participatory experience of Mankind
in which God is born out of and into Humanity

CHRIST as the SON OF MAN
is God become Man
All men must evolve and create THE SECOND COMING
When we meet Lucifer in the depths of the unconscious
he is indeed the LIGHT-BRINGER
in that he illuminates this Dark Truth

WE, all mankind must participate in the dastardly act
become Dirty Harry and Obliterate Evil
No more nice guy, no more turning the other cheek

In slipping the knife between his rib's return "prid pro quo"
and deliver our Brother unto our Father

Father! Oh Father! Accept my Sacrifice
Mine own Brother have I delivered unto You!

For to tell the Truth:  Who doesn't want to blow away/ transmute Evil
In the End, we Live by Death only

THE WANDERER

The WANDERER walks the Earth
but "strange lands and separation are the wanderer's lot...
a wanderer has no fixed abode; his home is the road."

he does not busy himself with trivial things
lest he draw down misfortune upon himself
The Wanderer is a stranger...he must be cautious and reserved

"he does not lose touch with his Inner Being...
he wins the allegiance of a trustful servant"
I Ching

who is this servant?  is it his anima
his Inner Divine Spirit?
"...in my wanderings among the mazes of psychic transformations [I] came upon a secret happiness
which reconciles my apparent loneliness...
I have found him to whom I am transpersonally related--The Self
that seems like the happiness of a secret love"
                                                 PAUL LEVY

Nonetheless, the wanderer must "limit his desires...he must always be on guard...
he is persistently conscious of being a stranger in a strange land"
                                                                             I CHING

"My kingdom is not of this world"
                                   JESUS CHRIST

When i awake to all the suffering in the world
hunger, greed, murder, rape, abuse
violence of all kinds, i am overwhelmed with emotion
it so undermines our faith in a Loving God

but all these evils are the result of the man's ego gone rampant
a function of being lost in the darkness
a direct consequence of the diminishment of the Sacred
even the churches have turned  secular
wherein, there is no Light

Our God is a Good God and loveth mankind
His wondrous Creations stand testimony to that
On the other hand, what man has chosen to do
with the greatest gift from a Loving God--
FREEWILL
is an abomination!

look to man for evil in the world
God has gone to the extent of sending us his "suffering servants"
Jesus Christ, Muhammed, Mahatma Kandi, Buddha
among many others and all the saints, known and unknown
to teach The Way over and over

Fate is a decision:  to choose the good
lived moment by moment
a Light thru the Darkness thru which Redemption will be won

Divine Spirit within, strengthen me
that i may be an influenze and power in the world for good

SUFFERING SERVANT

I ask for forgiveness for my sins
I ask for and suffer repentance for them
but beyond that
I pray that I may be a force for good in the world
to live moment by moment
under the guidance of the Divine Spirit within

I have been blessed to be touched by the Divine Spirit
to be in intimate communion with a form of the Deity
it was a moment of DIVINE ECSTASY
it is what is meant by Deliverance
though just a moment
a piece of heaven
it is a gift of eternal Joy and Peace

From it emanates the desire and strength to Purify the world
a love that exceeds all denial and betrayal
that stands victorious from Beginning to End
what comes in-between is just a lack of consciousness
to fulfill consciousness, to make it complete
we must suffer the dark nite of the Soul and emerge victorious
then we know beyond any doubts or despairs
Required:  explore the dark nite of the Soul

There is truth in "Seek and ye shall find"
look into your heart, your unconscious
Enlighten yourself overcome your timidity; take the plunge.
God has given you the wisdom, the key to divinity itself
don't wait for death for deliverance
you will only face a spiritual groundhog day
a divine injunction to go back and get it right

Who do you think Jesus was speaking to when he said "FOLLOW ME"?
a select group of 12 disciples only?
and when did he mean to begin your Journey...
when all other options expire except Death itself?

Now is the time of Deliverance!

His command was not to seek material rewards, a life of comforts and ease...
but just the opposite...to Sacrifice for the many
Deny the lure of materialism and self-gratification

What does "Sell all you have and give it to the poor" mean to you?
some abstract parable?
does it mean gather unto yourselves all you can...
live the good life...the so called prosperity gospel?
Think again.

I have sinned; who has not?
I have asked for forgiveness and guidance to do right
what more does He ask of us?

Thanks be to God for creating man with such a depth
of Transformative Love
ALLAHU-AKBAR--GOD IS GREAT!

Capitan of my soul, Divine Being within
as my consciousness grows
"I" (ego) cease to exist

By honoring the Forces of the Spiritual Life
May the Psychic Nature of my Soul
be Transfigured
and attain Power amd Influenze on Earth

"Be the kind of leader  you would follow unheasantily "
                                                              I CHING

Angels manifest mystically
descending, dancing carelessly, defying form; SPIRIT-- the essence of substance
iridescent, budding rainbows blooming
intertwining...inseparable
Beauty as One--yet Myriad

I see you as you once were
As you are even now
As you cannot lose that which is truly yours
Innocence and Independence reign as your Natural Birthrights

Your eyes radiate Truth
Implicit to your Inner Self
In the Light of Eternity
all superficial externalities fall away

Blessed be your Inheritance

When I look upon you
the Christ in you overwhelms my perception
Innocence abounds...Purity emanates
By your image my psyche undergoes Transfiguration
I am Redeemed
The World is awash with Holy Baptism

 Your eyes, the windows of your Heart

How much i relish this moment
the Pure Joy of being alive
the Simple Pleasures of the Earth
the Wind...breath itself
the act of walking...Peace within movement

In this my mortal body
I enjoy but fleeting tastes of the immortal
How much more will I cherish full immersion into the Spiritual

speech is not just the outward articulation
of words
but the remembrance of what is already known
the unwritten, unspoken knowledge of the heart
as such, it can never be curtailed
except by self-denial

children are children of the earth
not so much mine or yours

but of the Earth Mother's
and as such, we are meant to Nourish them
as the Earth Nourishes us
Nurture their Innocence and Independence
as they guide us
to rediscover, recover
our own Childhood Innocence

what if everytime you made a Sacrifice
someone's elses life was set into Redemption
thru random acts of Self-Sacrifice
Salvation is activated

Sacrifice is a universal catalyst for Purification

From:THE NAME OF THE ROSE, Umberto Eco

"...I have never heard so many calls for pentience as today, in a period when, by now, neither preachers nor bishops...are any longer capable of inspiring true repentance."

"...but it seems typical of the scant virtue of the people to abstain from sin out of their fear of some idol, though they may give it the name of some saint {virtue}...they no longer believe in the resurrection of the flesh, but have only a great fear of bodily injuries and misfortunes and therefore are more afraid of Saint Anthony than of Christ."

In nomine Patris
et Filli, et Spiritus Sancti
Amen.

Joy so palable you can taste it

Joy in a bowl
drenched with Light
eaten with a spoon

INN0CENCE and INDEPENDENCE

i will not conform
to confirm
someone else's fears/fantasies

nor will i accept the consequences
of someone else's limitation of consciousness

ancient earth
was a many-eden wunderland
eden after eden, recreated endlessly
earth-mother was prolific in her creations, re-creations

character
is much like a chocolate pudding
it must have firm inner consistency

GLACIER LODGE

back in the day...

WAR CLUB

Christmas 2010

Hannah Christmas 2010

Abagail Christmas 2010

VALVERDE ON ST. VRAIN

LIKE FATHER LIKE SON

                                                            

IN IT FOR THE PAIN

i'm stalkin pain
hunting the trigger point
a struggle to engage it
only to surrender

oh, sweet release

TWO LAKES

mirroring reflection:
two lakes on top of each other

picture at travis' pond re:1975


     two lakes
    on top of each other

Children of the Earth
dig deep
un-earth the Primal Sound

Earth giving birth...

Purity of heart  dissolves hardness of ego (mind)
seek the COMPANION within
KNOW without doubt, despair, anxiety

DIVINE LIGHT perseveres, prevails
leads the way

it takes a steady flow of ADVERSITY
to hone and strengthen our INNER BEING

Behold! may my Path be strewn
with obstacles, obstructions, stumbling blocks
that i may attain DELIVERANCE

Lyle Lovett "Closing Time" New Brunswick, NJ June '08

that which i worry about
does not come to pass
that which i fail to acknowledge
transpires unseen
cause for celebration, unknown

Rust -crescent oaks tower
above
as solar flairs reflecting their last energy bursts
before withdrawing for winter's hibernation

a moment for pause...

No longer do i count, number, name the days
as i mark the Path of the Sacred
regardless, of day, time, or place

old-age opens
like a vast underground chamber
a wondrous cavern hidden
from surface consciousness
but expansive beyond imagination and expectation

its as if entering a secret hide-away
tucked deep within the mysterious Sphinx
plentiful gifts beyond the temporal
draw one deeper into the chambers of timelessness

a line in the sand
old-age beckons, promises TRANSFORMATION

   THE Angel is in  the here and now
within the bowels of Mother Earth
deep in the plummets of the cavernous ocean

She rises enveloping the earth
in her arms
Overcoming, overwhelming all doubt, despair, disbelief
by DIRECT KNOWING

Now is the time of REVELATION!

you and your on coming death
battling over the once Proud- Parade- Ground
now turned toxic-waste pit
you would gladly let go
but it belligerently, diligently pulls you down
into the sink holes of non-existence
insisting:  "Hey, let's do this one more time."

When i see the ANGEL again
the blue-fount towering angel...

foraging for my breakfast
gathering pecans off the forest floor (city street)
yet,there's something intrinsically satisfying
about hunting and gathering...


oh yeah, you don't have to go thru the check-out lane

the PATTERN weaves itself
around a good man
where threads come together
"what is willed, is willed "

just as thunder chases lightning
so does the rain stir the wind
making it fitful
or suffers it a latent death

the Night has its own secret language
NIGHT SILENCE

Nothing fills, expands my Soul
like Music
with it, I am raptured, ruptured
wrent apart
and wholly put back together
for a while, I am Sacred again
again, sitting upon the wall

Devote thyself
to the Divine Images within
secret knowledge will be yours

what if our "culture"  by-passed the detour of words
how might that have changed who we are, what we know

words perform "cultural subterfuge"
as in the metaphor THE TOWER OF BABEL

With words we babel on and on
never-arriving

Imagine a day without words
a life without words
DIRECT KNOWING

can we get there from here
(absence seizures are beyond words...a STATE OF AWE)
as is, non-hearing, as in the State of Deaf

like seeing the Grand Canyon for the first time
at a loss for words
what if we absorbed that loss, lived in a permanent STATE OF AWE
something like EDEN
AWE-STRUCK, numb-founded

is it just me
or
does SILENCE speak more vividly
than words ever did, ever will

this moment comes as a
bend in the River
I look upon you, standing at the oxbow
seeing myself at that same place and time

only to pray that you may be
more Graceful than I
on your Journey

There are Angels Among Us
silently going about God's work
its not the Nature of the work, itself
that deems it as God's

but, rather, the Way in which its Done
whether sweeping or mopping floors
cutting grass or washing windows
if it is done with Grace, Humility and Gentleness

This is God's Work

my position as a lowly apprentice
brings  me no demise
on the contrary

fills me with all manner of Spiritual Riches
meekly awaiting apprehension

In the Beginning, all great undertakings
as "Crossing the Stream" loom larger than life
hold promise of excitement...adventure

The Beginning is the most wonderful of Times
Life is pregnant...(I plagiarize)

the First Love, the True Love
Love that transforms the world
and with it, ourselves

what happens to that love
is it the world that corrupts us
or
do we lock the gates of eden behind us

First Love, True Love
Return
bring back the world as we once knew it
restore the keys

This Old Porch

Mariano (Robert Earl Keen) Cover

I like for sleep to overcome me
like a mist shrouds a ship at sea
the ocean is a vast consciousness
whose depths i fathom without fear
as long as i am accompanied by
lumen naturae

My Inner Athlete never abandons me
it may fade, diminish at times
but it always perseveres

its aches and pains, constant now
shift
a knee, a hip but no matter
as long as the effort is made
the reward is ever-present

Righteous Brothers - Unchained Melody

Before the sun breaks the horizon
before the daily hustle begins
the aroma of fresh clover and grass
my boyhood inheritance flood my nostrils

to what do i owe these unexpected pleasures
only
that i make the effort to be in this time and place

all the world is orchestrated for my enjoyment